go forward with faith

    

a few months ago, Adam and i graduated from Brigham Young University.
Adam graduated in Physiology & Developmental Biology. & i graduated in Family Life with an emphasis in Human Development.

i look back on the last year and constantly think to myself,
“how in the heck did we accomplish that!?”

when we found out we were going to have a baby, one of my biggest fears was that i wouldn’t finish school.
i knew Elijah would be born right before our last year so it seemed foolish to give up after so many years of hard work, but it also seemed impossible to somehow get both of us to finish while taking care of a little human being.

but somehow we did it.
quite miraculously we did it.

we were able to balance our schedules enough so that there was always one of us home with Elijah.
since i was nursing him, i was able to fix my schedule so that i was only gone 2 hours at a time.
the perfect window of time between his feedings.
a window of time i didn’t know would be perfect when i first arranged my schedule.
but it was.

a week after Elijah was born, i signed up to take a class so that i didn’t have to go full time in the fall or winter.
everyone told me it was crazy.
if i went back in time, i would tell myself it was crazy too.
but through all the sleepless nights, i finished the class with high marks.
blessing. 

then, i needed a capstone class and was planning to sign up for one this last summer, extending my graduation.
but money was tight, my patience & energy was running thin, and i didn’t think i would make it.
and all the internships available at the time took me away from my baby & didn’t feel right to me.
then the opportunity to work with StrongerMarriage.org literally popped up in my inbox.
when i was interviewed they said i was their first choice and offered me to position, promising i could work from home for only 10 hours a week, fulfilling my capstone, and letting me graduate on time.
grateful.

i can’t take credit for anything that happened. or how everything fell into place perfectly.
i know the Lord did it all for me.

but i do want to offer some words of encouragement.
if you are in a position where you don’t think you can accomplish your goal anymore, just take one more step,
try one more time,
keep going.
because you will find the strength you didn’t know you had.
and the Lord will provide!

and then you will look back with a sense of pride and accomplishment for what you were able to do.
and you will believe in yourself more than you did before.
and you will know you can get through it
because you already did it once
because He has always been there.

trust
and go forward with faith.