he’s still my baby

IMG_1240[he made a little seat in the blanket basket. smart boy! :)]

a couple of months ago, i finally put together Elijah’s first year baby book. as i was looking through his pictures to put in it, i couldn’t believe how much he has grown.
he used to be so small & chubby!

it’s crazy to think that he is now this very active toddler, running around the apartment, getting into all kinds of trouble, when this time last year he was just barely starting to scoot around and sit up by himself.

where did my little baby go?
what happened to the nights that he would fall asleep curled up on my chest?
or when he wanted to be held by us all night long?
or he would just coo & giggle & slobber all day {without getting into the trash can}?

he’s just so big now!
and it honestly makes me sad.
it makes me sad to think that soon he will be too busy to want to cuddle with me on the couch.
or dance around to Party Rock with me.
or let me tickle his back while he lays on his pillow.

then the other night, Elijah woke up after about an hour, crying, coughing and sweating. he has been getting his molars in so it was a rough week. i went in to get him and he gently laid his head on my shoulder.

i then took him out to the living room where Adam was and all three of us sat down together,
all warm and snuggly.
i held Elijah like i did many many times before, cradled in my arms.
he just laid there, rubbing my arm with his little hand, and stared at me straight in my eyes.

all of a sudden i had this overwhelming feeling overcome me.
Elijah just looked at me like he has many many times before.
the same way he looked at me when he was a tiny, wrinkly infant in the hospital, meeting each other for the first time.
the same way he looked at me when he was a small, snuggly baby and i would bounce him on the bed to go to sleep.
the same way he looked at me when he was a chubby, rolly-polly baby and i would calm him down when he had croup.
his quiet, loving look has been the same for 17 1/2 months now.

the look that i am his mom & he is my baby.
my baby.
always my baby.

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Wild Flower said...

Oh my goodness, he is adorable! I'm so glad you stumbled upon me, I love your blog!


Franchesca said...

such sweet pictures!!! Makes me sad how quickly they sprout! My little man is 17 months. :)

Nicole Wellon {evieLu} said...

Hi there!. Following you through our link up!. Thanks for linking up :)

... said...

Darling pictures! :) We grow up so fast....I wish we could just stop sometimes! But there are so many amazing things in store :)

Sarah B. said...

Awwwww, way to pull on my heartstrings! I can't even imagine!! :)

I'm your newest follower from Casey's!

Anonymous said...

It hurts a little, doesn't it? I had a similar post to this one a few days ago. My dad made DVDs for me of all the video from my daughter's birth to almost 3 years old. I about died watching them. I'm sitting there looking at my 9-year-old wondering how the heck she got to be so BIG! You just want so badly to keep them little! :o)

Anonymous said...

What a precious post. It's so true too. I have a 12 year old daughter & she is still my baby!

Amber Marie said...

we were just thinking the same about dane today. there is something about that 18 mo mark i guess. they just suddenly look so big and grown-up! cute pictures of eli.

Tiffany said...

It's hard not to be sad when they grow up but I just have to remind myself of all the exciting things to come as they get older :o)

holli h. said...

I love that first pic of elijah with the pacifier. so cute.

Brit said...

Oh how precious! What a handsome little man you have! Crazy how fast they grow up! My youngest is five now :( And it is impossible to hold and snuggle her. Stopping by from the Blog Hop! Newest follower :)

Emma Frances said...

Oh. My. Goodness. I am in love with those pictures of you two. Adorable! :]

Alycia Grayce (Crowley Party) said...

he is beautiful :) and I love you. the end.

Anonymous said...

He's so precious! loooved meeting you tonight...it was way fun! :)

Kylee said...

It really was so much fun! Glad we got to do it :) And your little boy is adorable! Stinkin' cute. How would you ever say no to that face? good luck ;)

Kelsey Cole said...

Megan. I was so good meeting you tonight! I am excited to have found your blog:) your family is beautiful! and Elijah is such a handsome little boy!:) I hope you had a wonderful night at the party!

Kelsey Cole said...

P.s. Yes I am in provo! we definitely need to get together again:) tonight was so much fun!

jen fuller said...

SO glad that someone else at that party has a baby :) thought i was alone! maybe we could meet up for a play date one day...we didn't get to talk enough (and thaaanks for the sweet comment about me being pretty...some days it's hard to feel put together, so that comment made me happy!)

Rolled Up Pretty said...

Megan! Yoo whooooo! K your baby is a DOLL and I LOVE your blog, adorable! I'm already planning our our next girls night..... :) Your newest follower here girlfriend. Or should I say Samantha? HA! Have a good night!!!

Alexis Kaye said...

those pictures are so precious! You're such a goo mommy :)

Katie said...

It was great meeting you tonight too, too bad we couldn't get to know each other more. We'll have to do it again. Loves from your newest follower!

Autumn @ Autumn All Along said...

It was nice meeting you last night :) Sorry I was so spacy about the giveaway...! She emailed me today.

I put some photos up on my blog, everyone is welcome to steal them or ask me for bigger copies.

Megan (Best of Fates) said...

Gorgeous photos - no wonder you can't stop seeing that adorable baby face!

The Pingrees said...

little eli is SO CUTE! oh my gosh, even cuter than you described him! it was so nice meeting you on Friday, let's get together ASAP! :)