stream of consciousness

I just have a lot of random thoughts on my mind. And I decided I wanted to write it all down in a random blog post. So here it goes.

me at 16 weeks. and Adam laughed at my chubby cheeks so I tried not to smile too much... husbands...

:: I already feel like this pregnancy is going so fast and yet so slow! I'm 17 weeks today and sometimes I think, "Wow, I'm already 17 weeks??" But then I'm like, "I'm only 17 weeks!" So grateful for this little babe. But I'm already over the pregnancy business.

:: When you ask Elijah what the baby is he usually says it's a baby brother and his name is Peanut. Today though he said it's a sister. Don't get my hopes up kid! [Actually we would be so happy with either, truly :)]

:: This baby is super weird and picky about what I eat. I can't have any kind of refined sugar, at all! One cookie will take me out for hours and I feel like I want to die. I also can't have foods high in fat or just unhealthy food in general. Potato chips? Not a chance. I guess I'll stick to my carrots.

:: Speaking of eating healthy... I think it's great that there's (what seems to be) a huge movement now with everyone eating healthy and being more aware of what goes in their bodies. As someone who never really thought much about what I ate [I mean I would try to eat good portions and make homemade meals that I thought were healthy], it has really got me thinking more about what I'm putting in my body and has inspired me to really try harder to eat healthier. However, I have to admit I'm kind of sick of seeing articles every other day about how terrible every.single.thing.is for my body. All the things that I thought were fine and healthy, or just making sure I eat things in moderation, apparently will all kill me. The string cheese I eat every day probably has some kind of flesh-eating bacteria in it, sugar will give me cancer, milk will kill me, vegetables have poison on them, bread will stop your heart, and eating meat basically makes me the devil. Even the carrots that I keep as my staple probably grew out of the ground that was mistreated & has a crazy amount of chemicals on them... Can't I just eat what I want?? What happened to just being smart, eating things in moderation (even sugar!), and making sure you get your healthy amount of vegetables & fruits? I miss the simpler times...

(And I'm not trying to mock or anything. It's just all very overwhelming! Am I the only one who thinks so?)

:: I feel like all my pregnancy symptoms this time around is all the symptoms I didn't have with Elijah but are still annoying and/or make me miserable. I'm just as sick as I was with Elijah but a different kind of sick which almost makes it worse (plus chasing a toddler around), I swear I go through so much toilet paper, and my upper-chestal region has grown exponentially. It's so confusing... bodies are so weird, guys!

:: Elijah has been the sweetest little boy lately! For every crazy outburst that makes me want to curl up in a corner, he has the sweetest most heart-melting moments that make life worth living. I feel like I've fallen in love with so much more the last couple of months. I like that kid!

:: I've also realized a lot lately how great of a guy Adam is. He's just the best. I'm a lucky girl. Apparently these pregnancy hormones have really made me all touchy-feely :)

:: I'm reading Anne of Green Gables for the very first time and I'm kicking myself that I didn't read it sooner. I feel like it was some rite of passage in childhood that I never did and I always feel so out of the loop when people reference it. I am now in love with Anne and secretly wish I was her and now I want to move to Nova Scotia and live on a big plot of land with flowers and trees everywhere and a brook. This is now my biggest dream and if we live anywhere else I will be deeply disappointed and my soul will writhe in unfulfilled agony.

And these are my random thoughts on a Thursday afternoon. What random thoughts are on your mind? :)