this is why husbands were given wives

 Adam always gets annoyed when I make him plan things ahead of time. He says he doesn’t like his life all planned out. [I know I’m a horrible wife]

So. Adam had this great plan to invite the cousins over and eat junk food and watch scary movies for Halloween. He asked them on Sunday during our little family dinner and they all seemed to like the idea and told him to just call them during the week for more details.

Easy enough.

So the rest of the week came..and went... and I kept asking Adam to make some plans and figure out the movie, what he wanted to feed them and to let them know what time. He was busy, I understood. So I just let him handle it.

Then Halloween Eve came and I asked him if he had talked to his cousins at all. He said no but they probably weren’t going to do anything so it’s not a big deal. I was skeptical and asked him to just call them. So he did. Nathan and Brandon both didn’t know if they could make it anymore cause they now had plans. Hmm...

I know I shouldn’t be upset with him. I was a little peeved when I realized his little plans wasn’t going well. But I know he tried and I know he had a lot going on during the week.

I just like to smile to myself secretly and {not quite} say I told you so.

I think he doesn’t mind me making plans anymore...

livin’ out of the hands of the government

Someone told me that I should treasure this moment because this is probably one of the only times I’ll enjoy saying this. So I am.

I am so glad we’re poor!!

Well that sounds pretty ungrateful actually…

It’s more like I am very grateful that there are programs out there to help us get through this kind of stressful time of planning for a baby on a student’s salary.

We were approved for WIC, Medicaid, Food Stamps which are soooo helpful and will help us save a lot of money. We are very blessed to get help which makes this whole thing a lot less worrisome. We can feel good to know we can take care of our baby and be more prepared for it’s arrival.

We also realize how lucky we are to live in a country and state with so many opportunities to help people like us. There are many other people we know who are also expecting or have kids and they are able to get the same help. It makes us feel even more blessed to know we live in a place that looks out for us and is always willing to help those who need it.

the sweetest noise

is a baby’s heartbeat. i want to hear it all day.

the doctor found the heartbeat right away. [she said it was a girl cause she didn’t have to search for it. but she also said she’s always wrong, so we’ll see] i loved looking at adam’s face when she told us that what we were hearing was the heartbeat. he had a huge smile on his face and then he winked at me. i love him so much.

the next day i got sick {again}. i always get sick, even when i think i’m getting better. but at least i know that my baby is okay, even if i feel horrible. it definitely makes everything soooooo worth it!

adam has to put up with me a lot. i feel really bad for him. he has to hear me complain and question my purpose. but he always reminds me of that sweet noise we heard and the tiny toes, fingers, and cheeks that we’ll be kissing soon.

can i just have the baby now??? this is the cruelest wait…