how did this little guy get so big?
when did he go from being a chubby little baby who could barely crawl to a toddler that runs laps around the house?
it makes me sad to think of how fast he is growing.
there’s times where i physically hurt because i know it is only a matter of time that he will be too big
too big for my kisses
too big for my hugs
too big for my cuddles
i tell Adam quite regularly how i want Elijah to be a little baby again.
there’s times where i wish i could do his first year over because even though i know it’s irrational,
i feel like i already missed so much.
last year feels like such a blur.
with me and Adam both going to school and trying to graduate on time.
plus starting my internship with the Stronger Marriage blog and Adam teaching classes.
then applying to dental schools and working out finances,
to the basic overwhelming exhaustion that comes from being first time parents.
i felt like there were always stresses, things that took my time away from soaking in my sweet baby boy
people used to always tell me, “enjoy these moments because they don’t last forever!”
and i used to think that was either: 1. an obvious statement and therefore annoying advice
and 2. a dumb thing to say to sleep deprived mother and it seems impossible to enjoy being chronically tired.
but lately {and really since i had this conversation} that has now become my mantra:
enjoy these moments!
enjoy how he dances to Elmo’s World in the morning
enjoy the magic in his eyes when he sees the Christmas lights sparkle
enjoy his need to blow kisses to you each time you walk out the door
enjoy his babbling & giggling [even if i can’t understand]
enjoy the way his hair curls after his baths
enjoy it all.
cause it will be gone in a blink.
